Arriving home from a family vacation right around New Years time means that an empty fridge (sad face) and the possibilities for new years resolutions (double sad face) stand before me. I don't generally believe in resolutions (if you're really going to be serious about doing things differently then why put off the start date til January 1? Or why bother to embark on an endeavor that's just a spur of the moment thought thrown on to your list of other poorly thought out resolutions?), but this year seems different to me. Maybe it's because I graduated college and got a job in the middle of 2010 and I'm the type of person who needs distinct beginnings, middles, and ends, but I somehow feel as if this is really it for me - life starts now. This is a beginning for me. I'm not getting any younger but I have a ways to go before I need to start worrying about getting old. I have bills to pay but no kids, pets, or other major responsibilities. It's totally cool if I don't call home every week and - get this - sometimes I actually WANT to call my mother just to say hey. Having gradually eased in to all of those things I feel a distinct need for a starting point from which I can measure my successes, failures, and everything in between.
As you may have guessed, I will not be making any formal resolutions this year, but from here on out I will try my damnedest to take full control and ownership over the things that are mine, relinquish control over things that are not, and do all that I can to just take it easy on the in between things until they fall into one category or the other. I'm optimistic that by doing these things I can effectively keep my shit together and have a happy and (relatively) healthy 2011.
Enjoy my badly spaced run on paragraphs and, more importantly, happy New Year!
-xx
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